Well, I missed one day of blogging and I guess it was a good thing! It should have been the best day of the week, Sunday, a day of rest and a day to be in the Father's house but it was not. It turned out to become a terrible day!
So today I will pray more for Jesus to break those chains that control my life! My 2 year escalation of my chronic pain has left me desperately out of shape and I gained 40 pounds too! This had done nothing but lower my self esteem from someone who is suffering from feeling like less of a person because I have lost the ability to work to someone who is no longer attractive and no longer healthy in any way.
Oh people say, just go on a diet and exercise and you will lose the weight that you have gained. Sure, the diet part is actually pretty easy, it's the exercise that remains a challenge! I have exercised faithfully for many years; aerobics, running, walking, biking, swimming, tennis, weights, and numerous gym memberships. But now the ability to really exercise to control my weight and furthermore, effectively reduce, has been lost!
So I will pray and be thankful that I can do my "Sit and Be Fit" senior show (EVEN THOUGH I AM NOT A SENIOR AND IT HURTS!). I will continue to take my gentle walks in my neighborhood, take my medications, and cuddle with my best friend, my "ice pack" several times a day! I will pray to be set "free" from this chronic pain and to be set free from the devastating low self esteem it brings!
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